The Ritalin Diary

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Day 3

I didn't eat any breakfast this morning when taking the Ritalin.

I think maybe the "zippy" feeling I had the first day was just my body adjusting to the medication.

It is weird because usually if you look for side effects and changes, you will find them even if they aren't there because you are looking for them. I really can't notice any. The doctor said that she was starting me out on a low level, and this may be a consequence of that. The specific brand is Ritalin LA, which is supposed to be a time-release version, so maybe it will take a while for it to accumulate in my system or something.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Day 2: The Effect

Today I have barely been able to notice a change in my behavior after taking the pill.

Yesterday I felt a little more hyper and like I was talking a little faster than normal.

I didn't eat until an hour after I took the pill yesterday and today I ate with the pill so I am not sure if that would affect the absorption rate and its initial effects.

In any case, I still seem to be able to focus and stay on task pretty well (except for writing this blog I guess). I would rather just be able to focus and not feel those side effects anyway, so all the better.

Day 2: Down the Hatch

I just dropped today's pill.

Let's see how the morning goes.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Day 1

I have a memory problem. I have an organizational problem. I have a motivational problem. I am a 22 year old white male living with adult ADD. I know it sounds like some corny commercial to try and get to you talk to you doctor about adult ADD, but this is real. Today I started my treatment.

Taking ritalin is kind of a scary idea for me. Today at about 11:45am I took my first pill. A single 30mg dose of Ritalin LA. Nothing happened. At least not at first, it's a pill. :) But about an hour or two later, I started to feel it.

It was good. This was not me feeling high like "street drugs" high. I just felt good. I felt like a normal person. I could think about things without it taking over my entire thought process. I could focus on more than one thing at a time. I could formulate and share my ideas just as fast as I needed to. It felt like a haze had been lifted.

It is hard to explain because I constantly feel like I need to defend myself against people who don't believe in ADD. I feel like if I say something to some one about being on the pill, they will look down on me or something. I feel like they think I must not have any self-control if I have resorted to a pill to take care of all my woes.

Screw those people.

I don't know how this blog will turn out, or if it will turn out. I think it will be interesting to look back on what may be a pivotal moment in my life. So maybe it will also be interesting to see from the outside as it is happening.